Rompin' Around

So I bought this romper at a LOFT where one of my dear friends works (for only another day or so at this point!). I typically pop in about monthly to see what's on sale and of course, to catch up on what's new with her. I'll be sad to not see her pretty face when I next visit, but excited for this next chapter of her life. Best wishes, my little LOFT fashionista friend! So this romper...I went in looking for the long-sleeved version (and am STILL on a hunt for one I like) but ended up getting the sleeveless version, upon my friend's advice that they were selling like hotcakes. Which, by the way - does anyone know where that phrase comes from? I'm curious, because if hotcakes really sell that fast, I need to get into the hotcake business, pronto. But I digress...the romper! Yes, the romper! I fell in love with the fit, the tassels at the waist and the halter-style neckline (which you could've seen if I'd have remembered to take off my vest in these pics!). The vest was a surprise impulse purchase from Express because the fit was IMPECCABLE. Do you ever have that moment where you're like "wow, I don't have to alter/suck it in/find another size/wish the sleeves were longer or shorter?"....because if you do, just buy it - not only is it meant to be, but I guarantee said item will NOT be in the store should you have a change of heart and return to buy it. Trust me.

That being said, I've been doing pretty good on my June No Shopping Challenge...I may have slipped a little the day I went in to see my friend mentioned above, but not too badly. I do have to admit I'm absolutely SALIVATING over the upcoming Nordstrom Anniversary Sale and the current Kate Spade sale (get 25% off sale items with code SETSALE!). I may have to end my challenge a few days early, but am feeling better overall about curbing spending; it was a good mental refresher to take a few weeks off, exercise some restraint and pray about where I should be spending my money.

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Photography by: Ari Clare

LOFT romper | Express sleeveless vest (now on SALE!) | Impeccable Pig clutch (splurge or spend or steal)| Tom's wedges via Ebay | LOFT bracelet similar or  similar | Kendra Scott earrings (not shown, but so fabulous and now on SALE!)

 

 

If only life were as simple as picking an outfit...

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 Cheeky Bean tank | Lucky jeans via Clothes Mentor | Francesca's earrings | wedges (old) similar and similar | H&M fringe bag

Sometimes I wish life was a simple as choosing an outfit. I've been putting this post off for over a week now and feel like I should just come clean to anyone who is reading. So here it is:  I struggle from depression. It comes and goes and is mostly kept in check by exercise and anti-anxiety meds, but this past week was a doozy for me. Several factors were at play, but the biggest one is that my husband and I made the tough decision to stop our pursuit of foster to adopt through our state's department of social services and start the long process of traditional adoption. And while I'm excited about this pursuit and believe we've made the right decision, it's been hard to digest. What was looking like a relatively short journey (at least to have a child placed with us, not necessarily one to adopt - I need to keep reminding myself of that) has now turned into another 12 to 18-month journey. Just the thought of waiting that long is exhausting to me. This isn't our first rodeo. We started trying for a baby about a year after we got married (eight years ago). We went through a multitude of failed fertility treatments, surgeries, blood draws every other day that made my arm look like a drug-user all while watching what seemed to be a endless stream of friends, family members, celebrities and every other woman in Target get pregnant. It was the toughest season of our lives. There were times I didn't think our marriage would make it. Thankfully, with our strong faith it did. After our last failed attempt, we thought we'd go directly to adoption but it just didn't feel right. It felt like yet another hoop to jump through. I couldn't get onboard mentally and neither could my husband. We agreed to keep trying for a few months until my birthday, then "call it." My birthday arrived with yet another "minus sign" on that stupid stick, so we called it. After many months of prayer, tears and finally truly giving it to God, we began to heal and gradually got to a place where we were actually at peace with it just being the two of us. Flash-forward to the Fall of 2014 when I began to feel like I wanted more. A lovely friend suggested I consider fostering and we decided this could be the perfect answer for us. As we continued to consider this, God changed both of our hearts again towards wanting a forever child. We decided to pursue foster to adopt, as this was an extremely cost-effective (basically free) option. We attended orientation in January of 2015 then began the wait for a Home Inspection and more classes. In yet another ironic twist of events, the very week we received our invitation to the classes, we decided the foster to adopt route was not for us. And again, I'm excited for the ultimate outcome of our new decision but the reality of waiting has set in. Anyone who has traveled this road knows it's a roller coaster of emotions. I'm definitely in the valley portion and struggling hard to get back to the peak. I know God is with us and will carry us through this next season, but it's just tough right now.

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